Its funny how addictive "peopling" your life can be. I do try to avoid the closeness that seeps in...mostly to avoid the "vacancy" that comes eventually with some time. The pain none the less is hard to escape.
With heartman its especially very difficult...this time space warp we are in and pretty much everytime...we get together...its pretty soon time to leave. Heck, its like a tape played all over again and again and again...
He saying dont worry...me saying yeah sure...he saying be a good girl and me ...no my eyes...its like its a auto flood cue.
I was hoping, I only needed to deal with identity crisis most of the time...but this emotional overload that comes with feelings and bonding..its a different level all together.
I never tink I am ready, I dont know if I ever want to be...but this much is for sure...nothing is really ever waiting for you to said "ok"...you have just got to keep walking with everything...all the way.
Today was a really long day...it began at 2:30 in the morning...and I'm still figuring our how much more.
Post a Comment