Time Out/ Sabbatical…whatever you may want to call it; Its important, It is essential.
I, finally after many years felt...Alive, Human. There is so much happening around us, if we only stopped, looked and listened.
When the break started…I was kinda cranky…”Wot do I do with my self. I have a whole day…and I cant believe I don’t know how to fill it!”..i mean…I must have said this to my self a million times for the first 7-8 days or so ( I had about 6-7 weeks!,).
And then I began to calm down…not de stress exactly…but CALM down. Taking life, one pace at a time.
I took time to read, beyond the subject of my profession…literature, history, comics by the dozen. There is so much to learn :)
Indulged in free style dance, wrote, worked out, traveled, cooked…walked for miles.
I think, I don’t mutter any more…and I feel alive!
To be able t get composure back again is a big change.
I also took time out to rationalize my fears.
I probably did something a lil unconventional, blocked out people (think I’ve mentioned this before) …I mean, I really wanted to have time with my self and mythoughts and wanted to be away from every one ( except my family). In a way it help me understand peopled connected to me in my life…I was able to rationalize their importance ( often, and I have this tendency, to over emphasize someone, and often I get taken for a ride on this one….especially some who are just emotionally draining and parasitic ).
As cynical and wiered it may sound...this really helped me.
On my trip..know wot pix I took the most?…Nature…I mean not people posing in front of a mountain or a tree or rive water fall…but real nature…plants flowers, trees, waterfall…sans people…got some photography tips…the works. I mean…we notice so much when we are Able to mind, body and spirit.
Well…Well...now that I’ve “ washed, cleaned, tumbled dried”…and then maybe on some occasion “ dry cleaned” myself!...I hope I can stay that way.
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