Emotional Overload

So, my whole town was around over the last 15 days...and with today...I'm back to being on my own.

Its funny how addictive "peopling" your life can be. I do try to avoid the closeness that seeps in...mostly to avoid the "vacancy" that comes eventually with some time. The pain none the less is hard to escape.

With heartman its especially very difficult...this time space warp we are in and pretty much everytime...we get together...its pretty soon time to leave. Heck, its like a tape played all over again and again and again...

He saying dont worry...me saying yeah sure...he saying be a good girl and me ...no my eyes...its like its a auto flood cue.

I was hoping, I only needed to deal with identity crisis most of the time...but this emotional overload that comes with feelings and bonding..its a different level all together.

I never tink I am ready, I dont know if I ever want to be...but this much is for sure...nothing is really ever waiting for you to said "ok"...you have just got to keep walking with everything...all the way.

Today was a really long day...it began at 2:30 in the morning...and I'm still figuring our how much more.

Emotions

With time, I guess a lot of facets gain importance, I don’t know if its the need of the hour or a realization of what we have been missing, but-- I do like the new age thinking or for that matter new perspectives that emerge.
It’s another question altogether if these thoughts are refreshing or not, but they offer an explorable dimension.
For an intrepid journey girl like me :)…it offers muse time.

Yesterday, was pretty interesting ... was exposed to some basic contemporary dance techniques, and I liked it. Maybe because its so touchy feely as opposed to rigid forms of traditional dance.
According to the Black Fish Academy contemporary dance sing the body's natural lines and energy, allowing a greater range and fluidity of movement than conventional dance techniques.
Its another thing that it’s a safe form for beginners – and maybe that’s why I am drawn to it :) , but I have always liked, emotion over stoicism. Its so much real.

It is my opinion that any form of expression, should emote. Its important especially so in dance to be connected body , mind and soul…if you can dance with feelings, it is so easy for the viewer to understand you and for you –the dancer or for that matter any form of artist- to come alive.
But this is all about song and dance. In regular life too…its not easy to ignore the high energy emotions that surround us. Be it in the form of pressure build up at work, or the quantum of emotional outbursts in our daily lives, even if it be fighting over air conditioning control ;)!
We are indeed increasingly becoming more passionate people.
Emotions are an interesting palette of colors for canvas of life; they play an important role in disseminating reality. But I reckon, some of the best pictures have been Black and White or maybe sometimes Sepia.
Being an emotional person, I can’t seem to get over my bias to be real, but my head always reasons restraint.

The answer, I guess, is never in between…responses as I have learned are unique to circumstances.

Here is a song I'm liking now a days :
Apologize
I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize,
it's too lateI said it's too late to apologize,
it's too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the Angel Heaven let me think was you,
But I'm afraidIt's too late to apologize, it's too lateI said it's too late to apologize