having an honest conversation with your self on a regular and on
going basis is possibly of the most interesting things you can doand
of course journal it ( you never know where thouse random
mumblings will take you!)
Journaling and regularly so is also , actually very therapeutic ,
its like taking a much needed vitamin pill of sanity ( its under
rated it seems) , of coherency ,creativity ...and i missed taking my
pills for a while.
So, I've come to an interesting juncture in life - you know the
time when its gets a lot more intense than it just being a "mid
life crisis" ...? Yuss! that one- when questions are not just about
what the heck am i doing in life... to "is this all that there is?"
Really?
All, this chasing is quiet amusing , because the more i try and
chase what my "heart" wants- the more I realize it wants the
world- it wants to be a vagabond, it wants to be a lazy beach bum,
it wants to bungee jump, it despises any responsibility... it wants
to paint with one hand and write a book with another...it wants to
be a "warrior" , it wants to rule the world... BUT nowhere does it
have a game-plan for feeding the belly or saving your body from
the cold rain or blazing heat...
You see, when you get to basic needs ...all avant garde notions
tend to get into "perspective".
So, now what?
Ennui abounds, but it abounds at many times in our lives.
Sure you crave to run naked on a beach ... but you know , your not
in that sort of a world!
Maybe all I need (or any one of you out there- going through those
extra pangs in life) - is a break . A break with some definite
start and end dates...not one of those endless , maudlin ones... you
will have plenty of time for that later and you will inherently
know when that later is( maybe its now- but you will know thatand
it wont be just the pull of "I'm generally bored of my
colleagues, the work place sucks..." or some such "excuse").
Maybe all you need is some quality me time. Maybe all you need is
a walk in the park ( how often do we get that) or just an engaging
book to read. The point is you life's choices are a team decision -
your mind, your brain, your heart, your gut... so many parts of you
that need to be on the same page, but rarely are- i know most of
these"team members" in my case seldom agree and my body pays a
heavy price by falling sick or getting depressed or generally
meandering away in aimlessness...
I have realized that knowing this bit and having every part of me
to agree is so vital for general well being.
And we realize that we don't pay much attention to all of our
views only when Life decides to slow us down via a mid life crisis
or constant edginess and some such - i.e when you are forced to sit
down and listen and look up, look inside...
Sigh.
going basis is possibly of the most interesting things you can doand
of course journal it ( you never know where thouse random
mumblings will take you!)
Journaling and regularly so is also , actually very therapeutic ,
its like taking a much needed vitamin pill of sanity ( its under
rated it seems) , of coherency ,creativity ...and i missed taking my
pills for a while.
So, I've come to an interesting juncture in life - you know the
time when its gets a lot more intense than it just being a "mid
life crisis" ...? Yuss! that one- when questions are not just about
what the heck am i doing in life... to "is this all that there is?"
Really?
All, this chasing is quiet amusing , because the more i try and
chase what my "heart" wants- the more I realize it wants the
world- it wants to be a vagabond, it wants to be a lazy beach bum,
it wants to bungee jump, it despises any responsibility... it wants
to paint with one hand and write a book with another...it wants to
be a "warrior" , it wants to rule the world... BUT nowhere does it
have a game-plan for feeding the belly or saving your body from
the cold rain or blazing heat...
You see, when you get to basic needs ...all avant garde notions
tend to get into "perspective".
So, now what?
Ennui abounds, but it abounds at many times in our lives.
Sure you crave to run naked on a beach ... but you know , your not
in that sort of a world!
Maybe all I need (or any one of you out there- going through those
extra pangs in life) - is a break . A break with some definite
start and end dates...not one of those endless , maudlin ones... you
will have plenty of time for that later and you will inherently
know when that later is( maybe its now- but you will know thatand
it wont be just the pull of "I'm generally bored of my
colleagues, the work place sucks..." or some such "excuse").
Maybe all you need is some quality me time. Maybe all you need is
a walk in the park ( how often do we get that) or just an engaging
book to read. The point is you life's choices are a team decision -
your mind, your brain, your heart, your gut... so many parts of you
that need to be on the same page, but rarely are- i know most of
these"team members" in my case seldom agree and my body pays a
heavy price by falling sick or getting depressed or generally
meandering away in aimlessness...
I have realized that knowing this bit and having every part of me
to agree is so vital for general well being.
And we realize that we don't pay much attention to all of our
views only when Life decides to slow us down via a mid life crisis
or constant edginess and some such - i.e when you are forced to sit
down and listen and look up, look inside...
Sigh.
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